Repercussion?

Sigh. Summative accessment 2 just passed...I did pretty well I think. I hope. But somehow, I feel kinda down, I don't know why. Perhaps because I'm too sensitive?

After coming back from DOTA yesterday, I really don't know why I suddenly felt so depressed. And no, it has nothing to do with my exams or studies, and I rather not disclose the reason behind my moodiness. It was like 1:36 am in the morning, I stepped out of the lift on 11th floor, and suddenly, I just don't feel like walking on anymore. Although my apartment is just a few steps away.

I just stared out of the window, and thought about a lot of stuff. Much has been going on my mind lately, and I can't really take them off my mind. Thoughts about why sometimes you're treating me this way and sometimes you're treating me that way. I admit I'm a tee-bit too sensitive when it comes to these matters, but your actions sometimes really really confuse me.

Without me realising, a tear has trickled down my cheek. And I started crying.

Staring blankly out of the window and cried.

Sigh.

Well I think I'm ok now, and I've decided to just 'see how things go'. Just to let go a little bit you know? Not to care too much about things.

Maybe I'll feel better that way?

Exams, and tribute to my dad.

Oh gawd. I've got just so many exams coming up, until I don't know which one I should prepare first. 20th June is my summative accessment 2, followed by my End of Semester examinations on July 4th & 5th, plus my Grade 8 drums exams on the following week, AND also my Japanese course Intermediate-I exam. Haih~

I think I'll just scrape my idea of having a day off on 20th May right after my summative accessment 2. T_____T

But then, next sunday is Father's day, and I haven't gotten anything for my dad yet. All these years, I've always taken my father for granted and never bought anything for him other than cards on occasions. This year, I want to make it a point to get something nice for him, something that'll make him feel appreciated and bring a smile upon his face. I owe him this much at least, after so many years of putting up with my antics and disobeyment.

He's not young anymore, and I don't know how many years more he'll be around for me, care for me, to see that I'll get through the rocky journey of life ahead smoothly. Thank you, thank you so much for sacrificing practically everything for my wellbeing, just to see me succeed in life.

Therefore, I've decided, even with all my exams on my doorstep, I'll find some time tomorrow to Sunway Pyramid and get a nice little pressie for him. :-)

Thanks a lot to Karen (my drums teacher) who reminded me about this matter. You're right; I should assure him that I'm capable of standing on my own feet now and that he doesn't have to worry about me every single minute and second of the day anymore. It is time for me to spread my wings and fly, to venture out towards the tranquil waters ahead, without you on my side, guiding and carpeting my every step. And if, IF everything EVER fails, I'll always be rest assured that you'll be there waiting for my return on the distant shore, hands out-stretched, to soften my fall with your tender loving care.

Thank you, daddy. Thank you. I'm blessed to have you by my side.

I love you, daddy.

Tidal Reminiscence: Past & Now.

Been wanting to take a picture of this photo for a long time.

I really had a blast on those 3 days I've worked with you gals, although it's really tiring standing there the whole day with that frozen smile to each and everyone of the passing crowds who're rushing to do their last minute shopping of the year before 2005 comes knocking on the door...

A tribute to all of our hardwork, perseverance and perspiration on those 3 days. Someday, somewhere, somehow...I hope we'll meet again.

Although the period of time our paths crossed was short, but those are precious memories that I will cherish forever.

I miss you gals. :)



And now, this is a picture of the stupid me who rushed all the way back from uni to Kajang right after PBL (Problem-based Learning: another weird idea of IMU for us to study more) and speeding 120 km/h straight right to my doorstep (I admit, most of the time it was much faster, but I don't want to get a ticket ok? ) JUST to find out that today's a Yamaha holiday and NO DRUMS CLASS!!!!!!!

Wahahahahahahahaha.

Laugh all you want. Sigh.

The 'photoshop'ed version:-


Some identified items:
1. My 'supposedly' 'missing' Case Study handout...LOL!
2. My beloved drumset which I haven't 'spanked' for long.
3. Uh-uh...anime series which have been lying there for years...one day I really should spend some time and watch them...
4. My virus-infested PC!!! Showing my blog page, of course. :P

The last one....you go figure out yourself...... (Baka me. T__T)

Countdown.

June 20th....

14 more days......

CRAP.

No more pasar malams.

No more DOTA.

No more lying around.

No more hanging out.

And to add salt to injury, I FINALLY persuaded my dad to let me get hold of a car, but I don't have time to do NUTS with it.

Sobs.

SUMMATIVE ACCESSMENT 2 COMING!!!!


T___________T


Man I'm so gonna take a FULL ONE DAY BREAK on the day of the summative 2 day ITSELF. Let me see...a game of Time Crisis 2 (ouch that's gonna burn my pocket) then a movie...Batman Begins? And then a nice dinner...and then...maybe go somewhere and club a little or just anywhere to drink something hard enough to make you dizzy but not knock you out straight. Crapz, I still gotta drive ok?

After that, it'll be back to hardcore studying for End of Semester exams.

Anyone care to join me? ;)

Exams Exams Exams.

Okies, exams up the corner again. And so far I've got NADA preparation ready. Gawd, this is the worst prepared examination for me. Not only I've got Summative Accessment 2 round the corner, there's my End Of Semester exams coming up too. T_T

Time to gear up to full throttle again. Meaning, less updates around here.

And, anyone, anyone....can please suggest some good web hosting services with large enough bandwidth and upload quota preferably more than 5MB? I'm so sick of the bandwidth problem. Now I can only use freewebtown for hosting my background music because all the others doesn't work. They don't allow external linking I assume. And the maximum bandwidth for a month is ONLY 0.25 GB!!!!!!!! WTH.

Then, for other files like the mp3s in my previous posts, I wanted to host them at geocities or fortunecity because they allow 3 (or 2, can't remember) GBs of bandwidth. but.....BUT!!!!!!!!!!! only files with maximum 5MB can be uploaded.

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Not to mention fortunecity's uploading system is SOOO 'cacat'ed. (cacat=dysfunctional)

T_T